Titles are swag

After a lot of pressure, I have finally caved and made a blog and joined all you cool people.

TRUE

but yeah

this is kinda a more serious/ranting post

some shits been going on in my life, that most of the important people either know, or will know

lol

im actually rlly tired nd this seems kinda like a convo with myself at this point

this lack of sleep is rlly starting 2 get to me, yet i still cant escape this reality and doze off

ughhh

like shit

honestly

sometimes

some things in life, completely change your perspective on everything.

honestly

nothing seems the same nymore

time seems to be moving at a different pace

and all because of one thing

nd the thing is

i know i will feel this way, stuff like this is always hard to deal with

and im not the first, nor will i be the last

but

like

i dont even know anymore :/

u solve one problem

it takes all you have

but you do end up solving it

and then lifes good for a while

but then

something else goes wrong

making the previous problem seem insignificant

nd thats exactly wat happened.

aklfdsaklfjkalfjkladsfjakl;sdfja

the only thing keeping me going at this point it 2pac

for those that know me well ur prbbly tired of hearing this

but truly

pac is n amazing person, he made the most amazing music ive evr heard.

the impact on my life is much greater than almost ny teacher that just stands there giving those boring ass lectures

which brings me to another thing

recently

me nd a couple of friends have recently been srsly questioning the education system

like yeah evry1 complains bout it occasionally

but evn just 2day

we legit realized how flawed it is

no critical thinking

no creativity

just regurgitating facts

solve a question a different way and its "wrong"

not different, not accepted, just wrong

as we put it "These aren’t schools, these are idiot factories."

and i couldnt agree more

sooo many ppl only care abt the marks

its not bout the learning

its just the marks that matter

which complete bullshit imo

but is it society thats doing all this?

idk nymore

my trail of thought

is all ovr the place rite now

but going back to the original prblm

legit

as far as i can rmmbr

this is the shittiest ive evr felt

i try not to show it for the sake of most of my friends

i feel guilty burdening them with this

i know they all got their own shit to deal with

but tbh

i just cant deal with this myself

which is why im grateful for all my amazing friends

each and evry1 one of them has made an impact in my life

some may be greater than others

nd some may have "corrupted" me as they refer to it

but im grateful that theyr always ready to help, put away their own prblms

stay awake late

just to make me feel a little better

ughh

im sooo sleepy

but

wenevr i doze off

it all comes back to haunt me

its not rational

but i feel like its partially my fault

no idea y

theres nothing i couldve done

some things are just beyond wat you can handle, affect

i need to stop being so ideological

there are some things that i just cant to

not for me

not for my family

not my friends

not ny1

these past few days...

ive changed so much

i feel it happening

theres so many things i dont give a shit about nymore

my french quiz for example

i ddnt bother studying

french isnt exactly my forte either

which dznt help much

but i started randomly matching words

i legit dont care abt it

my thought process is so much more cynical

i just dont know how to describe it

"my lifes like one great big ball of shit"

its funny isnt it

evything always comes back to a lyric

there isnt much that dznt remind me of some lyric

either pac or eminem

both of them

amazing

talk real shit

unlike most mainstream fags

honestly

im just tired of all this now

ive done some rlly stupid shit the past two days

im not rlly proud of it either

if i could

i would go back nd stop myself

but w/e

screw that now

i dnt rlly care

emotions

r annoying

itd be so much ezr to live w/o them

i try keeping them in check most of the time

which apparently caused some ppl to label me a stoner

to them

i say this

"Fck you and have a nice day"

and

"Only God can judge me"

wow

this actually went on for a while

but yeah

honestly

life is to short

live with no regrets

nd thats y i did a stupid dare

that b4 i woulda been 2 pussy to do

but now

i purposely tried 2 make it as awks as possible w/o overstepping the line

not caring bout wat others (excluding real friends) think rlly simplifies evrything

k

i thnk im done for now

time to go edit the lyrics i rote 2day

first post swag etc etc

-Qrious