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ughh this math exam prep is killing me :/

but this procrastinatings gonna end up being worse :P
while procrastinating, i was going thru some old files nd ended up looking at my old msn convos
being a natural procrastinator, i began reading thru some
then i found something fairly interesting (not gonna post, wayy 2 personal)
but it was w/ a good friend that was giving me some advice on a personal issue
at the time, i thought he was crazy, but looking back, i realize he was completely rite
i wanna thank this anonymous person, but chances are that he'll end up reading this w/o realizing im talking bout him
"quicksand" that was honestly the best way to describe the prblm, but thnkfully, w/o realizing it, i kinda ended up following the advice he kept pressuring me 2 take

but yeah, that nd talking to another couple of friends on friday rlly made me realize how much ive changed. its kinda awks wen u thnk bout it, haha
for example, he described my grade 9 self as "the goody goody paki kid"
but that honestly isnt me nymore
for now this fag calls me a stoner
but tbh thats not me either (no i dnt do weed 2 those that ask...)

this verse from Pain by 2Pac (L), i found amazing and pretty relevant (not word for word, but the expression/emotion behind it)

They'll never take me alive
I'm gettin' high with my four-five,
Cocked on these suckas, time to die
Even as a youngster causin' ruckus on the back of the bus,
I was a fool all through high school kickin' up dust,
But now I'm labelled as a trouble maker who can you blame?
Smokin' weed helped me take away the pain,
So I'm hopeless,
Rollin' down the freeway swervin, don't worry,
I'm about to crash up on the curb, 'cause my visions blurry
Maybe if they tried to understand me,
What should I do?
I had to feed my fuckin' family,
What else could I do?
But be a thug,
Out slangin' with the homies,
Fuck hangin' with them phonies in the clubs,
Got my mind on danger,
Never been a stranger to homicide,
My city's full of gang bangers and drive-bys,
Why do we die at an early age?
He was so young,
But still a victim of the 12 gauge,
My memories of a corpse,
Mind full of sick thoughts,
And I ain't goin' back to court,
So fuck what you thought,
I'm drinkin' hennessey,
runnin from my enemies,
Will I live to be 23?
There's so much pain.

but ye, the sentiments seem so true.... RIP <3

thnking bout stuff that i used 2 say evn just a couple of months ago compared to now, i thnk wow, did i actually say that?

but thats been going on for a while, time changes all of us, but i feel like recently, that process has sped up. a lot.

the other night, i was having this intense conversation at like 9ish w/ this guy that ive never rlly talked 2 b4
in fact, the only thing i knew bout him was that wen he took a couple of guys on this volunteering thing, he gave them each a boge nd 2 peanuts, cuz it was cold :S

but after last nite, my perspective of him changed completely
basically, he has a philosophy degree, so hes this intense thinker,
but not only that, he wants to go into medicine
so we started talking in his car, it was supposed 2 b a quick 5 minute thing, but we ended up going for a couple of hours (my mom killed me cuz i was late)
but it was well worth it
he seems to have a vry similar opinion to mine in a lot of things
but it was kinda eye opening wen we started talking philosophy, aha, there was this one other guy with us, who looked completely lost, but the only reason i kinda got wat he was saying was tok
his knowledge on greek philosophers was amazing, but his own ideas is wat blew my mind
it was worse than watching inception
completely blown away
like honestly, this guy should write a book
so basically that made my friday, well that nd chilling w/ the homies :P

one thing that pissed me off was the penguins losing 2 tampa game 7 :'(
nd thank you damian for reminding me nd getting like 20 other ppl to tell me they lost on every occasion
we had a good season (esp cuz crosby nd malkin havent played in forever)
106 points, good for fourth in the east, the defense continued to amaze me esp letang, hes grown the most out of all the d we have
couple of the forwards rlly stepped up nd surprised me as well evn a couple of the rookies (kennedy, letestu, conner)
on the other hand a couple rlly disappointed me, namely kovalev. game 7, ur playing for your season, nd a shot at the cup, but he looked kinda bored, nd vry unemotional, lazy evn.
i expected him to be one of the older veterans pumping up the rookies, leading by example etc.
fleury honestly was the best player we had (after crosby got hurt). definitely the reason we got to where we were, nd kept us in the game w/ a couple of HUGE saves, that i doubt ny1 else wouldve made
oh well tho, with a healthy crosby nd malkin, well get em next season (yn)