Thursday, 15 September 2011
Saturday, 6 August 2011
Appeasing the "blog police"
basically a quick summer update
havent done much school-wise yet. no surprise there
chilled with a lot of old friends :)
german cousins were over for a month - another good thing :) 'cept im gonna miss them now
watched a bunch of movies off of the list i posted a while back
chilled in the states w/ american cousins, gonna go again on tuesday :D
omg tho. the curves on her. :O. honestly, theyr....breathtaking, ive never seen such a smexed....... hockey stick :P i honestly love the curve on my new stick :)
o and now my moms gotten it into herself that i need to go to an ivy league school -__-
like legit, she wouldnt leave me alone till i signed up for the sats
started playing some ball, gotta get ready for abl season. should be interesting
lots of volunteering.
month of Ramadan, so fasting for basically all of august.
now a quick to do list
start/finish EE
study for SATs
finish the Quran
finish editing lyrics
practice ball
break in new hockey stick
thats pretty much it for the summer so far
havent done much school-wise yet. no surprise there
chilled with a lot of old friends :)
german cousins were over for a month - another good thing :) 'cept im gonna miss them now
watched a bunch of movies off of the list i posted a while back
chilled in the states w/ american cousins, gonna go again on tuesday :D
omg tho. the curves on her. :O. honestly, theyr....breathtaking, ive never seen such a smexed....... hockey stick :P i honestly love the curve on my new stick :)
o and now my moms gotten it into herself that i need to go to an ivy league school -__-
like legit, she wouldnt leave me alone till i signed up for the sats
started playing some ball, gotta get ready for abl season. should be interesting
lots of volunteering.
month of Ramadan, so fasting for basically all of august.
now a quick to do list
start/finish EE
study for SATs
finish the Quran
finish editing lyrics
practice ball
break in new hockey stick
thats pretty much it for the summer so far
Saturday, 23 July 2011
summer movies
list of movies that i gotta watch/rewatch this summer, putting em here so i dnt forget (all recommended to any blogviewer)
1.)The Godfather
2.)The Godfather Part II
3.)Schindlers List
4.)Apocalypse Now
5.)The Good, The Bad, The Ugly
6.)Citizen Kane
7.)Casablanca
8.)Raging Bull
9.)The Searchers
10.)Taxi Driver
11.)Gone With The Wind
12.)12 Angry Men
13.) American Beauty
14.)To Kill A Mockingbird
15.) Fight Club
16.)The Elephant Man
17.)Amadeus
18.)Once Upon a Time in The West
19.)Goodfella’s
20.)A Clockwork Orange
21.)se7en
22.)Downfall
23.)Oldboy
24.)City of god
1.)The Godfather
2.)The Godfather Part II
3.)Schindlers List
4.)Apocalypse Now
5.)The Good, The Bad, The Ugly
6.)Citizen Kane
7.)Casablanca
8.)Raging Bull
9.)The Searchers
10.)Taxi Driver
11.)Gone With The Wind
12.)12 Angry Men
13.) American Beauty
14.)To Kill A Mockingbird
15.) Fight Club
16.)The Elephant Man
17.)Amadeus
18.)Once Upon a Time in The West
19.)Goodfella’s
20.)A Clockwork Orange
21.)se7en
22.)Downfall
23.)Oldboy
24.)City of god
Monday, 4 July 2011
Friday, 1 July 2011
Jalsa Day 1
today was an awesome day
that was sarcasm.
firstly, i slept in, so i had to rush everything in the morning.
k then i get to International center, set up the scanners, laptops etc.
getting stuff for one of the higher ups, my head gets smashed, blood everywhere.
go to the bathroom, clean it up, get some antiseptic, and bandage it.
no1 believes i wasnt in a fight...
im not that bad am i?
then, for the next 5 hours, im on scanning duty, standing.
the entire time, my heads freaking pounding.
get a quick break, then on the as400, doing registration.
then back to scanners for another couple hours.
if nothing could make it better, jagr signs with the flyers, and so does talbot. rupps also gone. (refer to previous post)
happy canada day btw.
that was sarcasm.
firstly, i slept in, so i had to rush everything in the morning.
k then i get to International center, set up the scanners, laptops etc.
getting stuff for one of the higher ups, my head gets smashed, blood everywhere.
go to the bathroom, clean it up, get some antiseptic, and bandage it.
no1 believes i wasnt in a fight...
im not that bad am i?
then, for the next 5 hours, im on scanning duty, standing.
the entire time, my heads freaking pounding.
get a quick break, then on the as400, doing registration.
then back to scanners for another couple hours.
if nothing could make it better, jagr signs with the flyers, and so does talbot. rupps also gone. (refer to previous post)
happy canada day btw.
Hit Em Up - Remix
k, only one small bit, but w/e:
F*** Jaromir Jagr, F*** Phili as a NHL franchise and as a MUtherF****** city, f*** Alexei KOvalev, F*** Sergein GOnchar, all y'all motherfuc***** die slow my fo-fo make sure all your kids dont grow
if you havent realized from my twitter rant, im kinda very pissed off.
i feel betrayed.
jagr was my third favourite player of all time.
and you go to philly.
piece of shit.
go die.
F*** Jaromir Jagr, F*** Phili as a NHL franchise and as a MUtherF****** city, f*** Alexei KOvalev, F*** Sergein GOnchar, all y'all motherfuc***** die slow my fo-fo make sure all your kids dont grow
if you havent realized from my twitter rant, im kinda very pissed off.
i feel betrayed.
jagr was my third favourite player of all time.
and you go to philly.
piece of shit.
go die.
Thursday, 30 June 2011
I should really sleep
havent rlly been keeping up w/ this blogging thing, been bzy w/ other stuff
nyways, Jalsa Canada starts today..
not gonna explain what that is in detail, too tired, but basically, its an annual convention held by the Ahmadiyya Muslim community, its a religious event, but still enjoyable. ppl from places like Mauritius, Pakistan, England etc r showing up
been rlly busy w/ setting that up...
just yesterday, 16 hours setting up the registration department, where i'll be working :)
it lasts three days, so those are gonna be insanely bzy
thats bout all ive been doing, other than movies
honestly, ive seen like 25 since the last exam
caught up with a bunch of old friends as well
just saying, but i love the guys i work under
the head of the department is honestly the funniest guy ever
he threatened us w/ a knife, said if we ddnt work hard enough. he actually had one. nd hes like 60 yrs old.
out of context, it sounds weird, but the way he said it and the atmosphere, was perfect
nd he gets us like 10 iced capps a day :P
but srsly, time for sleep.
nyways, Jalsa Canada starts today..
not gonna explain what that is in detail, too tired, but basically, its an annual convention held by the Ahmadiyya Muslim community, its a religious event, but still enjoyable. ppl from places like Mauritius, Pakistan, England etc r showing up
been rlly busy w/ setting that up...
just yesterday, 16 hours setting up the registration department, where i'll be working :)
it lasts three days, so those are gonna be insanely bzy
thats bout all ive been doing, other than movies
honestly, ive seen like 25 since the last exam
caught up with a bunch of old friends as well
just saying, but i love the guys i work under
the head of the department is honestly the funniest guy ever
he threatened us w/ a knife, said if we ddnt work hard enough. he actually had one. nd hes like 60 yrs old.
out of context, it sounds weird, but the way he said it and the atmosphere, was perfect
nd he gets us like 10 iced capps a day :P
but srsly, time for sleep.
Sunday, 19 June 2011
fly away
Some people ask me, where I’ve been lately
They thought I fell off, nobody could save me
I play in the background, I don’t back down
So don’t get it twisted, tryna play me
First I come out, they underate me
Then I come back, still try to fade me
They say I’m nasty, say I’m crazy
Ask what I think, I say maybe
I fly away
It ain’t nothin’ in my way so I may as well fly away
It ain’t nothin’ else to say so I may as well fly away
I know you wanna see me down but we aint gon die today
Cos I’ve been to the top and there’s nowhere else to go
The only way to see me is if you lookin’ up from down below
And there’s nothin’ else to say so I may as well fly away
And there’s nothin’ in my way so I may as well fly away
I’m on top of this thing so i may as well fly away
They thought I fell off, nobody could save me
I play in the background, I don’t back down
So don’t get it twisted, tryna play me
First I come out, they underate me
Then I come back, still try to fade me
They say I’m nasty, say I’m crazy
Ask what I think, I say maybe
I fly away
It ain’t nothin’ in my way so I may as well fly away
It ain’t nothin’ else to say so I may as well fly away
I know you wanna see me down but we aint gon die today
Cos I’ve been to the top and there’s nowhere else to go
The only way to see me is if you lookin’ up from down below
And there’s nothin’ else to say so I may as well fly away
And there’s nothin’ in my way so I may as well fly away
I’m on top of this thing so i may as well fly away
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
first of all FRENCH IS OVER. its been a few days but stillll, no more of it. ever. how can that not make you happy?
after monday, this week has actually been soo chill, too bad we still gotta do the tok essay.
but w/e thats wat he have sunday for.
hmmm
ive noticed, that ive been noticing things about myself recently
its not rlly stuff that i bring on myself, but occasionally something happens nd im like o tru thats actually tru. its kinda weird....
im kinda confused...
all my life, like legit from kindergarten, ive wanted to be a doctor.
i know wat that sounds like, o look, another brown kid that wants to be a doctor, swag.
but my parents had no influence in this, they said i could be watevr i wanted
k not nything, but as long as it was well idk actually
i honestly admired my doctors from a young age and the fact that the purpose of their jobs was to help people just appealed to me
so ever since then, my mind was firm. i was gonna go to med skool then become a doctor, live the rest of my life, and all would be awesome.
for the first time in my life tho, im actually not sure of wat i want to do. theres so many interesting things out there. esp recently, psychology has been amazingly interesting. (maybe criminal minds has more to do with this then i would like to admit, but yeah :P) so just being like maybe a psychiatrist or something like a profiler for the fbi would b legit as well (not rlly that shits way too intense)
theres just so many options out there. so many things that i would like to do, but again, resources (time) is scarce, so im gonna have to choose just one
that always leaves the "what if" question. would i have been better off if i did something differently?
basically identity crisis - not bipolar or nything
i just feel as if i act differently around different people. for example, im much diff at home nd a bunch of other places than i am at skool nd vice versa, but which one is the "real" me?
ToK moment :P
i thnk all of us at some degree r trying to find ourselves, and its just part of maturing and growin up, but i dnt thnk that theres ny way of actually completely understanding yourself. trying to do it w/ someone else i thnk would b easier.
w/e tho, ill keep looking for things that mite not even b there
ive also noticed, there are some ppl that u just feel right talking to. idk. maybe im just naive, but ignorance is bliss. its kinda funny how ppl are completely diff wen ur talking online nd then in real life its like theyr a completely different person.
its interesting tho, all this reminds me of something i read on another blog about true freinds. id have to disagree with a few things. true freinds can also just be someone you can be comfortable with, not the fact that you have to talk about deep stuff. as long as you feel comfortable, thats all that matters.
sometimes, ignorance is bliss
at wat point do you have to realize theres no point and just stop?
when, if ever do you completely give up on something?
after monday, this week has actually been soo chill, too bad we still gotta do the tok essay.
but w/e thats wat he have sunday for.
hmmm
ive noticed, that ive been noticing things about myself recently
its not rlly stuff that i bring on myself, but occasionally something happens nd im like o tru thats actually tru. its kinda weird....
im kinda confused...
all my life, like legit from kindergarten, ive wanted to be a doctor.
i know wat that sounds like, o look, another brown kid that wants to be a doctor, swag.
but my parents had no influence in this, they said i could be watevr i wanted
k not nything, but as long as it was well idk actually
i honestly admired my doctors from a young age and the fact that the purpose of their jobs was to help people just appealed to me
so ever since then, my mind was firm. i was gonna go to med skool then become a doctor, live the rest of my life, and all would be awesome.
for the first time in my life tho, im actually not sure of wat i want to do. theres so many interesting things out there. esp recently, psychology has been amazingly interesting. (maybe criminal minds has more to do with this then i would like to admit, but yeah :P) so just being like maybe a psychiatrist or something like a profiler for the fbi would b legit as well (not rlly that shits way too intense)
theres just so many options out there. so many things that i would like to do, but again, resources (time) is scarce, so im gonna have to choose just one
that always leaves the "what if" question. would i have been better off if i did something differently?
basically identity crisis - not bipolar or nything
i just feel as if i act differently around different people. for example, im much diff at home nd a bunch of other places than i am at skool nd vice versa, but which one is the "real" me?
ToK moment :P
i thnk all of us at some degree r trying to find ourselves, and its just part of maturing and growin up, but i dnt thnk that theres ny way of actually completely understanding yourself. trying to do it w/ someone else i thnk would b easier.
w/e tho, ill keep looking for things that mite not even b there
ive also noticed, there are some ppl that u just feel right talking to. idk. maybe im just naive, but ignorance is bliss. its kinda funny how ppl are completely diff wen ur talking online nd then in real life its like theyr a completely different person.
its interesting tho, all this reminds me of something i read on another blog about true freinds. id have to disagree with a few things. true freinds can also just be someone you can be comfortable with, not the fact that you have to talk about deep stuff. as long as you feel comfortable, thats all that matters.
sometimes, ignorance is bliss
Do you ever wonder at what point you gotta say just f*** it, man? |
when, if ever do you completely give up on something?
Monday, 9 May 2011
another week
wat a weekk
so i was "sick" on monday nd tuesday nd was supposed to be studying for math, but im too much of a loaft....
so instead, started watching the '67 stanley cup finals (last time the leafs won) nd damnnn the sports changed so much
moving on
tuesady, i legit started studying, did a couple of practice exams, nd went to sleep b4 12
wednesday went 2 skool, did the exam, nd i thnk it went ok, then went to taco i thnk, grabbed some lunch, then dipped home
started studying 4 paper 2, but for some reason, i cudnt focus.. so i tried studying for the fizix contest, but i failed w/ that too
thursday, woke up early, went 2 skool agn,
did another practice paper
then went to do the exam
b4 it started me nd pej started talking fizix but evry1 thought it was some next level math
which made us lool
after the paper
we both realized, we ddnt know shit, so we told dykshoorn we werent doing it
after that we had n adventure with 2 serbs
i swear that was such a harold nd kumar day
but then the next day stewart decides 2 give us another pop-test
but it wasnt that bad so w/e
saturday was interesting...
i went for a very very long walk to blow some steam
legit i thnk im fairly good at controlling my anger
but idk, i jst completely snapped :/
it was an eventful walk
saw some guy get pulled over for riding one of those kiddie motorcycles on freaking jane st.
thats next level stupid
so i laffed
nd kept walking and talking on my fone
to my guidance councilor (not legit) but i wanna thank those 2 anon people here as well, theyr amazing 2 talk 2
so after a couple of hours, i felt better
nd walked home
2 find that no1 was there
nd my keys were inside
so i called my parents
who went 2 vaughan mills
nd after bout 30 mins they came home
we ate, then sleepp
sunday was another very eventful day
woke up
made my mom breakfast for mothers day :)
then got a call that they needed me 2 go 2 peterborough for some volunteering thing
such a long ride, it took like 2 hours...
but such n obscure area
houses were like a kilometer apart, nd they were dirt roads
so no car either
we shoulda brought bikes
but ye after 6 hours of that
we headed home
nd on the way back
i was in the same car as the peanut guy from a post or 2 ago
nd again
such a tok convo
i had fun poking holes in all his theories :)
but cuz of that, i got part of my tok essay planned out
so got home
gave my mom her gift
nd like all moms, she loved it
but then nite came
another mindblowing experience
i had feelings for this certain member of the opposite gender
nd wanted 2 get rid of 'em
so i talked 2 n old friend
who went total badass on me
first started giving me examples
explaining it all
then giving me personal experiences
so basically
at 4 am
i started contemplating the entire meaning of life
nd all my philosophies
basically
everything
but i came to one conclusion
nd its bout religion
if ur gonna get offended by it, stop reading now
but basically
i realized
God is the answer to everything
if you pray to him, for anything (within reason) you never know the outcome
so basically
the point of life (the Islamic perspective) is to praise God
but atm, im not sure how/why
but im gonna continue praying till i find out why (and read a couple of books on the subject)
cuz at times life feels so messed
so many reasons to be stressed
thought we was going forward but we regressed
now some ppl r truly blessed
but wat bout the less fortunate
whos to say whos really the unfortunate
is it all bout perspective nd paradigm?
or is life jst the perfect crime
every minute seems like stolen time
i aint bein sour, not a lime
not sure if im being held for this war crime
not sure if this is been a minute or an hour
feels like im climbing the CN tower
enuff ppl got theyr own pain
but look here comes the train
ready to move on in life
get thru to the next strife
take it all step by step
is this the test, or jst prep?
nd im still wondering is this rlly me?
nd like 2pac said
will i live to be 23.
so i was "sick" on monday nd tuesday nd was supposed to be studying for math, but im too much of a loaft....
so instead, started watching the '67 stanley cup finals (last time the leafs won) nd damnnn the sports changed so much
moving on
tuesady, i legit started studying, did a couple of practice exams, nd went to sleep b4 12
wednesday went 2 skool, did the exam, nd i thnk it went ok, then went to taco i thnk, grabbed some lunch, then dipped home
started studying 4 paper 2, but for some reason, i cudnt focus.. so i tried studying for the fizix contest, but i failed w/ that too
thursday, woke up early, went 2 skool agn,
did another practice paper
then went to do the exam
b4 it started me nd pej started talking fizix but evry1 thought it was some next level math
which made us lool
after the paper
we both realized, we ddnt know shit, so we told dykshoorn we werent doing it
after that we had n adventure with 2 serbs
i swear that was such a harold nd kumar day
but then the next day stewart decides 2 give us another pop-test
but it wasnt that bad so w/e
saturday was interesting...
i went for a very very long walk to blow some steam
legit i thnk im fairly good at controlling my anger
but idk, i jst completely snapped :/
it was an eventful walk
saw some guy get pulled over for riding one of those kiddie motorcycles on freaking jane st.
thats next level stupid
so i laffed
nd kept walking and talking on my fone
to my guidance councilor (not legit) but i wanna thank those 2 anon people here as well, theyr amazing 2 talk 2
so after a couple of hours, i felt better
nd walked home
2 find that no1 was there
nd my keys were inside
so i called my parents
who went 2 vaughan mills
nd after bout 30 mins they came home
we ate, then sleepp
sunday was another very eventful day
woke up
made my mom breakfast for mothers day :)
then got a call that they needed me 2 go 2 peterborough for some volunteering thing
such a long ride, it took like 2 hours...
but such n obscure area
houses were like a kilometer apart, nd they were dirt roads
so no car either
we shoulda brought bikes
but ye after 6 hours of that
we headed home
nd on the way back
i was in the same car as the peanut guy from a post or 2 ago
nd again
such a tok convo
i had fun poking holes in all his theories :)
but cuz of that, i got part of my tok essay planned out
so got home
gave my mom her gift
nd like all moms, she loved it
but then nite came
another mindblowing experience
i had feelings for this certain member of the opposite gender
nd wanted 2 get rid of 'em
so i talked 2 n old friend
who went total badass on me
first started giving me examples
explaining it all
then giving me personal experiences
so basically
at 4 am
i started contemplating the entire meaning of life
nd all my philosophies
basically
everything
but i came to one conclusion
nd its bout religion
if ur gonna get offended by it, stop reading now
but basically
i realized
God is the answer to everything
if you pray to him, for anything (within reason) you never know the outcome
so basically
the point of life (the Islamic perspective) is to praise God
but atm, im not sure how/why
but im gonna continue praying till i find out why (and read a couple of books on the subject)
cuz at times life feels so messed
so many reasons to be stressed
thought we was going forward but we regressed
now some ppl r truly blessed
but wat bout the less fortunate
whos to say whos really the unfortunate
is it all bout perspective nd paradigm?
or is life jst the perfect crime
every minute seems like stolen time
i aint bein sour, not a lime
not sure if im being held for this war crime
not sure if this is been a minute or an hour
feels like im climbing the CN tower
enuff ppl got theyr own pain
but look here comes the train
ready to move on in life
get thru to the next strife
take it all step by step
is this the test, or jst prep?
nd im still wondering is this rlly me?
nd like 2pac said
will i live to be 23.
Saturday, 30 April 2011
Changes
ughh this math exam prep is killing me :/
but this procrastinatings gonna end up being worse :P
while procrastinating, i was going thru some old files nd ended up looking at my old msn convos
being a natural procrastinator, i began reading thru some
then i found something fairly interesting (not gonna post, wayy 2 personal)
but it was w/ a good friend that was giving me some advice on a personal issue
at the time, i thought he was crazy, but looking back, i realize he was completely rite
i wanna thank this anonymous person, but chances are that he'll end up reading this w/o realizing im talking bout him
"quicksand" that was honestly the best way to describe the prblm, but thnkfully, w/o realizing it, i kinda ended up following the advice he kept pressuring me 2 take
but yeah, that nd talking to another couple of friends on friday rlly made me realize how much ive changed. its kinda awks wen u thnk bout it, haha
for example, he described my grade 9 self as "the goody goody paki kid"
but that honestly isnt me nymore
for now this fag calls me a stoner
but tbh thats not me either (no i dnt do weed 2 those that ask...)
this verse from Pain by 2Pac (L), i found amazing and pretty relevant (not word for word, but the expression/emotion behind it)
They'll never take me alive
I'm gettin' high with my four-five,
Cocked on these suckas, time to die
Even as a youngster causin' ruckus on the back of the bus,
I was a fool all through high school kickin' up dust,
But now I'm labelled as a trouble maker who can you blame?
Smokin' weed helped me take away the pain,
So I'm hopeless,
Rollin' down the freeway swervin, don't worry,
I'm about to crash up on the curb, 'cause my visions blurry
Maybe if they tried to understand me,
What should I do?
I had to feed my fuckin' family,
What else could I do?
But be a thug,
Out slangin' with the homies,
Fuck hangin' with them phonies in the clubs,
Got my mind on danger,
Never been a stranger to homicide,
My city's full of gang bangers and drive-bys,
Why do we die at an early age?
He was so young,
But still a victim of the 12 gauge,
My memories of a corpse,
Mind full of sick thoughts,
And I ain't goin' back to court,
So fuck what you thought,
I'm drinkin' hennessey,
runnin from my enemies,
Will I live to be 23?
There's so much pain.
but ye, the sentiments seem so true.... RIP <3
thnking bout stuff that i used 2 say evn just a couple of months ago compared to now, i thnk wow, did i actually say that?
but thats been going on for a while, time changes all of us, but i feel like recently, that process has sped up. a lot.
the other night, i was having this intense conversation at like 9ish w/ this guy that ive never rlly talked 2 b4
in fact, the only thing i knew bout him was that wen he took a couple of guys on this volunteering thing, he gave them each a boge nd 2 peanuts, cuz it was cold :S
but after last nite, my perspective of him changed completely
basically, he has a philosophy degree, so hes this intense thinker,
but not only that, he wants to go into medicine
so we started talking in his car, it was supposed 2 b a quick 5 minute thing, but we ended up going for a couple of hours (my mom killed me cuz i was late)
but it was well worth it
he seems to have a vry similar opinion to mine in a lot of things
but it was kinda eye opening wen we started talking philosophy, aha, there was this one other guy with us, who looked completely lost, but the only reason i kinda got wat he was saying was tok
his knowledge on greek philosophers was amazing, but his own ideas is wat blew my mind
it was worse than watching inception
completely blown away
like honestly, this guy should write a book
so basically that made my friday, well that nd chilling w/ the homies :P
one thing that pissed me off was the penguins losing 2 tampa game 7 :'(
nd thank you damian for reminding me nd getting like 20 other ppl to tell me they lost on every occasion
we had a good season (esp cuz crosby nd malkin havent played in forever)
106 points, good for fourth in the east, the defense continued to amaze me esp letang, hes grown the most out of all the d we have
couple of the forwards rlly stepped up nd surprised me as well evn a couple of the rookies (kennedy, letestu, conner)
on the other hand a couple rlly disappointed me, namely kovalev. game 7, ur playing for your season, nd a shot at the cup, but he looked kinda bored, nd vry unemotional, lazy evn.
i expected him to be one of the older veterans pumping up the rookies, leading by example etc.
fleury honestly was the best player we had (after crosby got hurt). definitely the reason we got to where we were, nd kept us in the game w/ a couple of HUGE saves, that i doubt ny1 else wouldve made
oh well tho, with a healthy crosby nd malkin, well get em next season (yn)
but this procrastinatings gonna end up being worse :P
while procrastinating, i was going thru some old files nd ended up looking at my old msn convos
being a natural procrastinator, i began reading thru some
then i found something fairly interesting (not gonna post, wayy 2 personal)
but it was w/ a good friend that was giving me some advice on a personal issue
at the time, i thought he was crazy, but looking back, i realize he was completely rite
i wanna thank this anonymous person, but chances are that he'll end up reading this w/o realizing im talking bout him
"quicksand" that was honestly the best way to describe the prblm, but thnkfully, w/o realizing it, i kinda ended up following the advice he kept pressuring me 2 take
but yeah, that nd talking to another couple of friends on friday rlly made me realize how much ive changed. its kinda awks wen u thnk bout it, haha
for example, he described my grade 9 self as "the goody goody paki kid"
but that honestly isnt me nymore
for now this fag calls me a stoner
but tbh thats not me either (no i dnt do weed 2 those that ask...)
this verse from Pain by 2Pac (L), i found amazing and pretty relevant (not word for word, but the expression/emotion behind it)
They'll never take me alive
I'm gettin' high with my four-five,
Cocked on these suckas, time to die
Even as a youngster causin' ruckus on the back of the bus,
I was a fool all through high school kickin' up dust,
But now I'm labelled as a trouble maker who can you blame?
Smokin' weed helped me take away the pain,
So I'm hopeless,
Rollin' down the freeway swervin, don't worry,
I'm about to crash up on the curb, 'cause my visions blurry
Maybe if they tried to understand me,
What should I do?
I had to feed my fuckin' family,
What else could I do?
But be a thug,
Out slangin' with the homies,
Fuck hangin' with them phonies in the clubs,
Got my mind on danger,
Never been a stranger to homicide,
My city's full of gang bangers and drive-bys,
Why do we die at an early age?
He was so young,
But still a victim of the 12 gauge,
My memories of a corpse,
Mind full of sick thoughts,
And I ain't goin' back to court,
So fuck what you thought,
I'm drinkin' hennessey,
runnin from my enemies,
Will I live to be 23?
There's so much pain.
but ye, the sentiments seem so true.... RIP <3
thnking bout stuff that i used 2 say evn just a couple of months ago compared to now, i thnk wow, did i actually say that?
but thats been going on for a while, time changes all of us, but i feel like recently, that process has sped up. a lot.
the other night, i was having this intense conversation at like 9ish w/ this guy that ive never rlly talked 2 b4
in fact, the only thing i knew bout him was that wen he took a couple of guys on this volunteering thing, he gave them each a boge nd 2 peanuts, cuz it was cold :S
but after last nite, my perspective of him changed completely
basically, he has a philosophy degree, so hes this intense thinker,
but not only that, he wants to go into medicine
so we started talking in his car, it was supposed 2 b a quick 5 minute thing, but we ended up going for a couple of hours (my mom killed me cuz i was late)
but it was well worth it
he seems to have a vry similar opinion to mine in a lot of things
but it was kinda eye opening wen we started talking philosophy, aha, there was this one other guy with us, who looked completely lost, but the only reason i kinda got wat he was saying was tok
his knowledge on greek philosophers was amazing, but his own ideas is wat blew my mind
it was worse than watching inception
completely blown away
like honestly, this guy should write a book
so basically that made my friday, well that nd chilling w/ the homies :P
one thing that pissed me off was the penguins losing 2 tampa game 7 :'(
nd thank you damian for reminding me nd getting like 20 other ppl to tell me they lost on every occasion
we had a good season (esp cuz crosby nd malkin havent played in forever)
106 points, good for fourth in the east, the defense continued to amaze me esp letang, hes grown the most out of all the d we have
couple of the forwards rlly stepped up nd surprised me as well evn a couple of the rookies (kennedy, letestu, conner)
on the other hand a couple rlly disappointed me, namely kovalev. game 7, ur playing for your season, nd a shot at the cup, but he looked kinda bored, nd vry unemotional, lazy evn.
i expected him to be one of the older veterans pumping up the rookies, leading by example etc.
fleury honestly was the best player we had (after crosby got hurt). definitely the reason we got to where we were, nd kept us in the game w/ a couple of HUGE saves, that i doubt ny1 else wouldve made
oh well tho, with a healthy crosby nd malkin, well get em next season (yn)
Sunday, 24 April 2011
Easter
i hate trying to rite titles for this :@
the past two weeks were pretty hectic, nd shitty, but honestly, even tho im gonna regret this, i had so much fun this weekend
the hilite was watching the entire lord of the rings trilogy (extended collectors edition :D), its been a while since ive watched it, but i must say, i love wat peter jackson, the cast nd all others involved did. soooo many epic moments, life advice, nd emotional moments. Amazing, nothing else can describe it. i also jst realized how amazing the characters of merry, pippin nd boromir are, but out of em, i like merry the most (in addition to legolas, aragorn, gandalf nd sam) actually, i like all of the characters haha
now i cant wait for a longer version to come out... and the hobbit movie
thursday chilled after skool w/ jeff nd jack, did some stupid shit :P but it was worth it
then my uncle came back from pakistan, so had fun w/ that. lol i actually fell asleep at my uncles house thursday nite, haha i guess ive been pretty tired recently.
also destroyed my cousin in two best of seven series in nhl, (both times with the pens :D)
friday, went to the mosque, went back to cousins, chilled some more, nd started watching lotr (each movies bout 3-4 hours).
saturday, more lotr, gaming, sleeping, overall loafting
2day, finished lotr, went (was forced to) volunteering, but ended up being fun, cuz another czn reached as well, talked bout hockey
which reminds me, the only thing that rlly went wrong was the pens losing game 5 (8-2 :S) like WTF, idk how u lose that bad, but w/e still up in the series 3-2, jst gotta win tmmrw (yn) but, i miss crosby a lot rite now... the teams done amazing without him, but jst imagine if he was still w/ them :O that nd the fact that i need a new stick... but i found the perfect one, sexiest curve ive evr seen/tried, hopefully ill get it tmmrw
but lifewise, looking back jst a little bit, i feel like, ive changed... a lot.
done some stuff that im less than proud of, but i thnk that snaking is gonna end soon, its not fun nymore. haha, ive also noticed that the student population at metro during lunch has increased significantly recently :p
but some other things that will not be mentioned, idk wen theyll stop, but they need to haha
other than that, ive realized how fake some ppl can be, at first theyr all chillz, fun nd shmizz, but as time progresses, u realize that theyr complete assholes (not naming ny1)
i dbt theyll evr see this, but this song is perfect for how i feel bout them rite now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h2_8lHFrEMs (25 to life - eminem)
but haha, other ppl were so rite bout them, i was just too stupid to realize it, but i guess i get it now, but acting that immaturely bout it (the other person) wont solve ny of it, but i guess i dnt rlly care nymore at all, so have fun being n asshole.
damn tho, Nas is amazing lyrically.. this guy talks some real shit, one line that i rlly like rite now is: "But uhh, a thug changes, nd love changes/ and best friends become strangers, word up" (The Message)
thats actually so true. ive seen all of it going on all the time...
nd stupid writers block... havnt been able to rite ny lyrics recently, nd wat i have written, i felt was shit nd threw away :S need for this to end somehow
but looool, i thnk my econ teachers been coming baked to class evryday haha, hes been too happy recently, nd were watching avatar in class, not that im complaining, but wtf does it rlly have to do w/ economics?
gotta do some legit wrk tmmrw
esp math nd tok nd french
shit lol, shouldntve loafted so hard
i knew id regret it later :P
Sunday, 10 April 2011
NHL playoff predictions
considering the regular season is now over, final pairing determined (like 10 minutes ago), here are my predictions for round one
east
washington crapitals (1) vs ny rangers (8)
id give it to washington, in 6 the rangers have been playing very well, but barring a mindblowing performance from lundqvist, it wont matter
philadelphia flyers (2) vs buffalo sabres (7)
philly in 4 or 5, miller seems a little off imo (prbbly the injury)
boston bruins (3) vs montreal canadiens (6)
this is gonna b a tuff one, but w/ thomas playing the way he is, bruins in 6 or 7
pittsburgh penguins (4) vs tampa bay lightning (5)
w/ crosby still out, its gonna b tuff, but the defense nd flower have been amazing, so pens in anywhere from 5-7
west
vancouver canucks (1) vs chicago blackhawks (8)
historically, the blackhawks have destroyed the canucks, but theyv struggled this yr (almost didnt make the playoffs), so this time, im giving it to the canucks
san jose sharks (2) vs los angeles kings (7)
sharks started of poorly, but playing very well right now, nd kopitars out for la, im gonna have to give it to the sharks in 4, maybe 5
detroit red wings (3) vs phoenix coyotes (6)
coyotes esp bryzgalov have done well this season, but theyr still young, detroits looking better than they did last year (lidstrom :O), so red wings in 6
anaheim ducks (4) vs nashville predators (5)
ducks in 4, corey perry has been playing insanely, nd is in the midst of a hot streak, sorry nashville..
yeah those are my predictions.
im actually really excited bout the playoffs, only regrets are toronto not making it, nd crosby still being out....
ive also started listening to some brown music, legit stuff
atif aslam (Y)
Saturday, 9 April 2011
Intro
I realize that this is my second post so technically, its not technically an introduction at this point, but styll, im gonna rite one nyways.
hmm
well, basically, im the average 16 yr old, nothing special in my life.
i do a looooooooot of stupid shit i guess, but w/e, (nd no, im not talking bout drugs)
the two things that i love doing most would either be something hockey related (playing, watching, and that reminds me, i got like 105 new cards the other day! lol i know i sound like 5 but styll 2 patrick roys :p) or related to music (listening, singing or riting my own) those two things will appear frequently in this blog i guess esp w/ the playoffs coming up (yee penguins). a lot of this will also be judged as rambling
y i decided to blog?
well
i have a lot of free time (procrastination), so mite as well do something slightly more productive than canvasrider
apparently these are good for getting shit off your chest, randomly talking to urself etc, so after a certain someone *coughamincough* convinced me enough, i decided to create this
thats basically it for n intro. ending this is getting awks.... so ill just stop here.
- Qrious
Tuesday, 5 April 2011
Titles are swag
After a lot of pressure, I have finally caved and made a blog and joined all you cool people.
TRUE
but yeah
this is kinda a more serious/ranting post
some shits been going on in my life, that most of the important people either know, or will know
lol
im actually rlly tired nd this seems kinda like a convo with myself at this point
this lack of sleep is rlly starting 2 get to me, yet i still cant escape this reality and doze off
ughhh
like shit
honestly
sometimes
some things in life, completely change your perspective on everything.
honestly
nothing seems the same nymore
time seems to be moving at a different pace
and all because of one thing
nd the thing is
i know i will feel this way, stuff like this is always hard to deal with
and im not the first, nor will i be the last
but
like
i dont even know anymore :/
u solve one problem
it takes all you have
but you do end up solving it
and then lifes good for a while
but then
something else goes wrong
making the previous problem seem insignificant
nd thats exactly wat happened.
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the only thing keeping me going at this point it 2pac
for those that know me well ur prbbly tired of hearing this
but truly
pac is n amazing person, he made the most amazing music ive evr heard.
the impact on my life is much greater than almost ny teacher that just stands there giving those boring ass lectures
which brings me to another thing
recently
me nd a couple of friends have recently been srsly questioning the education system
like yeah evry1 complains bout it occasionally
but evn just 2day
we legit realized how flawed it is
no critical thinking
no creativity
just regurgitating facts
solve a question a different way and its "wrong"
not different, not accepted, just wrong
as we put it "These aren’t schools, these are idiot factories."
and i couldnt agree more
sooo many ppl only care abt the marks
its not bout the learning
its just the marks that matter
which complete bullshit imo
but is it society thats doing all this?
idk nymore
my trail of thought
is all ovr the place rite now
but going back to the original prblm
legit
as far as i can rmmbr
this is the shittiest ive evr felt
i try not to show it for the sake of most of my friends
i feel guilty burdening them with this
i know they all got their own shit to deal with
but tbh
i just cant deal with this myself
which is why im grateful for all my amazing friends
each and evry1 one of them has made an impact in my life
some may be greater than others
nd some may have "corrupted" me as they refer to it
but im grateful that theyr always ready to help, put away their own prblms
stay awake late
just to make me feel a little better
ughh
im sooo sleepy
but
wenevr i doze off
it all comes back to haunt me
its not rational
but i feel like its partially my fault
no idea y
theres nothing i couldve done
some things are just beyond wat you can handle, affect
i need to stop being so ideological
there are some things that i just cant to
not for me
not for my family
not my friends
not ny1
these past few days...
ive changed so much
i feel it happening
theres so many things i dont give a shit about nymore
my french quiz for example
i ddnt bother studying
french isnt exactly my forte either
which dznt help much
but i started randomly matching words
i legit dont care abt it
my thought process is so much more cynical
i just dont know how to describe it
"my lifes like one great big ball of shit"
its funny isnt it
evything always comes back to a lyric
there isnt much that dznt remind me of some lyric
either pac or eminem
both of them
amazing
talk real shit
unlike most mainstream fags
honestly
im just tired of all this now
ive done some rlly stupid shit the past two days
im not rlly proud of it either
if i could
i would go back nd stop myself
but w/e
screw that now
i dnt rlly care
emotions
r annoying
itd be so much ezr to live w/o them
i try keeping them in check most of the time
which apparently caused some ppl to label me a stoner
to them
i say this
"Fck you and have a nice day"
and
"Only God can judge me"
wow
this actually went on for a while
but yeah
honestly
life is to short
live with no regrets
nd thats y i did a stupid dare
that b4 i woulda been 2 pussy to do
but now
i purposely tried 2 make it as awks as possible w/o overstepping the line
not caring bout wat others (excluding real friends) think rlly simplifies evrything
k
i thnk im done for now
time to go edit the lyrics i rote 2day
first post swag etc etc
-Qrious
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