Changes

ughh this math exam prep is killing me :/

but this procrastinatings gonna end up being worse :P
while procrastinating, i was going thru some old files nd ended up looking at my old msn convos
being a natural procrastinator, i began reading thru some
then i found something fairly interesting (not gonna post, wayy 2 personal)
but it was w/ a good friend that was giving me some advice on a personal issue
at the time, i thought he was crazy, but looking back, i realize he was completely rite
i wanna thank this anonymous person, but chances are that he'll end up reading this w/o realizing im talking bout him
"quicksand" that was honestly the best way to describe the prblm, but thnkfully, w/o realizing it, i kinda ended up following the advice he kept pressuring me 2 take

but yeah, that nd talking to another couple of friends on friday rlly made me realize how much ive changed. its kinda awks wen u thnk bout it, haha
for example, he described my grade 9 self as "the goody goody paki kid"
but that honestly isnt me nymore
for now this fag calls me a stoner
but tbh thats not me either (no i dnt do weed 2 those that ask...)

this verse from Pain by 2Pac (L), i found amazing and pretty relevant (not word for word, but the expression/emotion behind it)

They'll never take me alive
I'm gettin' high with my four-five,
Cocked on these suckas, time to die
Even as a youngster causin' ruckus on the back of the bus,
I was a fool all through high school kickin' up dust,
But now I'm labelled as a trouble maker who can you blame?
Smokin' weed helped me take away the pain,
So I'm hopeless,
Rollin' down the freeway swervin, don't worry,
I'm about to crash up on the curb, 'cause my visions blurry
Maybe if they tried to understand me,
What should I do?
I had to feed my fuckin' family,
What else could I do?
But be a thug,
Out slangin' with the homies,
Fuck hangin' with them phonies in the clubs,
Got my mind on danger,
Never been a stranger to homicide,
My city's full of gang bangers and drive-bys,
Why do we die at an early age?
He was so young,
But still a victim of the 12 gauge,
My memories of a corpse,
Mind full of sick thoughts,
And I ain't goin' back to court,
So fuck what you thought,
I'm drinkin' hennessey,
runnin from my enemies,
Will I live to be 23?
There's so much pain.

but ye, the sentiments seem so true.... RIP <3

thnking bout stuff that i used 2 say evn just a couple of months ago compared to now, i thnk wow, did i actually say that?

but thats been going on for a while, time changes all of us, but i feel like recently, that process has sped up. a lot.

the other night, i was having this intense conversation at like 9ish w/ this guy that ive never rlly talked 2 b4
in fact, the only thing i knew bout him was that wen he took a couple of guys on this volunteering thing, he gave them each a boge nd 2 peanuts, cuz it was cold :S

but after last nite, my perspective of him changed completely
basically, he has a philosophy degree, so hes this intense thinker,
but not only that, he wants to go into medicine
so we started talking in his car, it was supposed 2 b a quick 5 minute thing, but we ended up going for a couple of hours (my mom killed me cuz i was late)
but it was well worth it
he seems to have a vry similar opinion to mine in a lot of things
but it was kinda eye opening wen we started talking philosophy, aha, there was this one other guy with us, who looked completely lost, but the only reason i kinda got wat he was saying was tok
his knowledge on greek philosophers was amazing, but his own ideas is wat blew my mind
it was worse than watching inception
completely blown away
like honestly, this guy should write a book
so basically that made my friday, well that nd chilling w/ the homies :P

one thing that pissed me off was the penguins losing 2 tampa game 7 :'(
nd thank you damian for reminding me nd getting like 20 other ppl to tell me they lost on every occasion
we had a good season (esp cuz crosby nd malkin havent played in forever)
106 points, good for fourth in the east, the defense continued to amaze me esp letang, hes grown the most out of all the d we have
couple of the forwards rlly stepped up nd surprised me as well evn a couple of the rookies (kennedy, letestu, conner)
on the other hand a couple rlly disappointed me, namely kovalev. game 7, ur playing for your season, nd a shot at the cup, but he looked kinda bored, nd vry unemotional, lazy evn.
i expected him to be one of the older veterans pumping up the rookies, leading by example etc.
fleury honestly was the best player we had (after crosby got hurt). definitely the reason we got to where we were, nd kept us in the game w/ a couple of HUGE saves, that i doubt ny1 else wouldve made
oh well tho, with a healthy crosby nd malkin, well get em next season (yn)

Easter

i hate trying to rite titles for this :@

wow, this has actually been an amazing weekend :)

the past two weeks were pretty hectic, nd shitty, but honestly, even tho im gonna regret this, i had so much fun this weekend

the hilite was watching the entire lord of the rings trilogy (extended collectors edition :D), its been a while since ive watched it, but i must say, i love wat peter jackson, the cast nd all others involved did. soooo many epic moments, life advice, nd emotional moments. Amazing, nothing else can describe it. i also jst realized how amazing the characters of merry, pippin nd boromir are, but out of em, i like merry the most (in addition to legolas, aragorn, gandalf nd sam) actually, i like all of the characters haha

now i cant wait for a longer version to come out... and the hobbit movie

thursday chilled after skool w/ jeff nd jack, did some stupid shit :P but it was worth it

then my uncle came back from pakistan, so had fun w/ that. lol i actually fell asleep at my uncles house thursday nite, haha i guess ive been pretty tired recently.

also destroyed my cousin in two best of seven series in nhl, (both times with the pens :D)

friday, went to the mosque, went back to cousins, chilled some more, nd started watching lotr (each movies bout 3-4 hours).

saturday, more lotr, gaming, sleeping, overall loafting

2day, finished lotr, went (was forced to) volunteering, but ended up being fun, cuz another czn reached as well, talked bout hockey

which reminds me, the only thing that rlly went wrong was the pens losing game 5 (8-2 :S) like WTF, idk how u lose that bad, but w/e still up in the series 3-2, jst gotta win tmmrw (yn) but, i miss crosby a lot rite now... the teams done amazing without him, but jst imagine if he was still w/ them :O that nd the fact that i need a new stick... but i found the perfect one, sexiest curve ive evr seen/tried, hopefully ill get it tmmrw

but lifewise, looking back jst a little bit, i feel like, ive changed... a lot.

done some stuff that im less than proud of, but i thnk that snaking is gonna end soon, its not fun nymore. haha, ive also noticed that the student population at metro during lunch has increased significantly recently :p

but some other things that will not be mentioned, idk wen theyll stop, but they need to haha

other than that, ive realized how fake some ppl can be, at first theyr all chillz, fun nd shmizz, but as time progresses, u realize that theyr complete assholes (not naming ny1)

i dbt theyll evr see this, but this song is perfect for how i feel bout them rite now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h2_8lHFrEMs (25 to life - eminem)

but haha, other ppl were so rite bout them, i was just too stupid to realize it, but i guess i get it now, but acting that immaturely bout it (the other person) wont solve ny of it, but i guess i dnt rlly care nymore at all, so have fun being n asshole.

damn tho, Nas is amazing lyrically.. this guy talks some real shit, one line that i rlly like rite now is: "But uhh, a thug changes, nd love changes/ and best friends become strangers, word up" (The Message)

thats actually so true. ive seen all of it going on all the time...

nd stupid writers block... havnt been able to rite ny lyrics recently, nd wat i have written, i felt was shit nd threw away :S need for this to end somehow

but looool, i thnk my econ teachers been coming baked to class evryday haha, hes been too happy recently, nd were watching avatar in class, not that im complaining, but wtf does it rlly have to do w/ economics?

gotta do some legit wrk tmmrw

esp math nd tok nd french

shit lol, shouldntve loafted so hard

i knew id regret it later :P

NHL playoff predictions

considering the regular season is now over, final pairing determined (like 10 minutes ago), here are my predictions for round one

east

washington crapitals (1) vs ny rangers (8)

id give it to washington, in 6 the rangers have been playing very well, but barring a mindblowing performance from lundqvist, it wont matter

philadelphia flyers (2) vs buffalo sabres (7)

philly in 4 or 5, miller seems a little off imo (prbbly the injury)

boston bruins (3) vs montreal canadiens (6)

this is gonna b a tuff one, but w/ thomas playing the way he is, bruins in 6 or 7

pittsburgh penguins (4) vs tampa bay lightning (5)

w/ crosby still out, its gonna b tuff, but the defense nd flower have been amazing, so pens in anywhere from 5-7

west

vancouver canucks (1) vs chicago blackhawks (8)

historically, the blackhawks have destroyed the canucks, but theyv struggled this yr (almost didnt make the playoffs), so this time, im giving it to the canucks

san jose sharks (2) vs los angeles kings (7)

sharks started of poorly, but playing very well right now, nd kopitars out for la, im gonna have to give it to the sharks in 4, maybe 5

detroit red wings (3) vs phoenix coyotes (6)

coyotes esp bryzgalov have done well this season, but theyr still young, detroits looking better than they did last year (lidstrom :O), so red wings in 6

anaheim ducks (4) vs nashville predators (5)

ducks in 4, corey perry has been playing insanely, nd is in the midst of a hot streak, sorry nashville..

yeah those are my predictions.

im actually really excited bout the playoffs, only regrets are toronto not making it, nd crosby still being out....

ive also started listening to some brown music, legit stuff

atif aslam (Y)

Intro

I realize that this is my second post so technically, its not technically an introduction at this point, but styll, im gonna rite one nyways.

hmm

well, basically, im the average 16 yr old, nothing special in my life.

i do a looooooooot of stupid shit i guess, but w/e, (nd no, im not talking bout drugs)

the two things that i love doing most would either be something hockey related (playing, watching, and that reminds me, i got like 105 new cards the other day! lol i know i sound like 5 but styll 2 patrick roys :p) or related to music (listening, singing or riting my own) those two things will appear frequently in this blog i guess esp w/ the playoffs coming up (yee penguins). a lot of this will also be judged as rambling

y i decided to blog?

well

i have a lot of free time (procrastination), so mite as well do something slightly more productive than canvasrider

apparently these are good for getting shit off your chest, randomly talking to urself etc, so after a certain someone *coughamincough* convinced me enough, i decided to create this

thats basically it for n intro. ending this is getting awks.... so ill just stop here.

- Qrious

Titles are swag

After a lot of pressure, I have finally caved and made a blog and joined all you cool people.

TRUE

but yeah

this is kinda a more serious/ranting post

some shits been going on in my life, that most of the important people either know, or will know

lol

im actually rlly tired nd this seems kinda like a convo with myself at this point

this lack of sleep is rlly starting 2 get to me, yet i still cant escape this reality and doze off

ughhh

like shit

honestly

sometimes

some things in life, completely change your perspective on everything.

honestly

nothing seems the same nymore

time seems to be moving at a different pace

and all because of one thing

nd the thing is

i know i will feel this way, stuff like this is always hard to deal with

and im not the first, nor will i be the last

but

like

i dont even know anymore :/

u solve one problem

it takes all you have

but you do end up solving it

and then lifes good for a while

but then

something else goes wrong

making the previous problem seem insignificant

nd thats exactly wat happened.

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the only thing keeping me going at this point it 2pac

for those that know me well ur prbbly tired of hearing this

but truly

pac is n amazing person, he made the most amazing music ive evr heard.

the impact on my life is much greater than almost ny teacher that just stands there giving those boring ass lectures

which brings me to another thing

recently

me nd a couple of friends have recently been srsly questioning the education system

like yeah evry1 complains bout it occasionally

but evn just 2day

we legit realized how flawed it is

no critical thinking

no creativity

just regurgitating facts

solve a question a different way and its "wrong"

not different, not accepted, just wrong

as we put it "These aren’t schools, these are idiot factories."

and i couldnt agree more

sooo many ppl only care abt the marks

its not bout the learning

its just the marks that matter

which complete bullshit imo

but is it society thats doing all this?

idk nymore

my trail of thought

is all ovr the place rite now

but going back to the original prblm

legit

as far as i can rmmbr

this is the shittiest ive evr felt

i try not to show it for the sake of most of my friends

i feel guilty burdening them with this

i know they all got their own shit to deal with

but tbh

i just cant deal with this myself

which is why im grateful for all my amazing friends

each and evry1 one of them has made an impact in my life

some may be greater than others

nd some may have "corrupted" me as they refer to it

but im grateful that theyr always ready to help, put away their own prblms

stay awake late

just to make me feel a little better

ughh

im sooo sleepy

but

wenevr i doze off

it all comes back to haunt me

its not rational

but i feel like its partially my fault

no idea y

theres nothing i couldve done

some things are just beyond wat you can handle, affect

i need to stop being so ideological

there are some things that i just cant to

not for me

not for my family

not my friends

not ny1

these past few days...

ive changed so much

i feel it happening

theres so many things i dont give a shit about nymore

my french quiz for example

i ddnt bother studying

french isnt exactly my forte either

which dznt help much

but i started randomly matching words

i legit dont care abt it

my thought process is so much more cynical

i just dont know how to describe it

"my lifes like one great big ball of shit"

its funny isnt it

evything always comes back to a lyric

there isnt much that dznt remind me of some lyric

either pac or eminem

both of them

amazing

talk real shit

unlike most mainstream fags

honestly

im just tired of all this now

ive done some rlly stupid shit the past two days

im not rlly proud of it either

if i could

i would go back nd stop myself

but w/e

screw that now

i dnt rlly care

emotions

r annoying

itd be so much ezr to live w/o them

i try keeping them in check most of the time

which apparently caused some ppl to label me a stoner

to them

i say this

"Fck you and have a nice day"

and

"Only God can judge me"

wow

this actually went on for a while

but yeah

honestly

life is to short

live with no regrets

nd thats y i did a stupid dare

that b4 i woulda been 2 pussy to do

but now

i purposely tried 2 make it as awks as possible w/o overstepping the line

not caring bout wat others (excluding real friends) think rlly simplifies evrything

k

i thnk im done for now

time to go edit the lyrics i rote 2day

first post swag etc etc

-Qrious